I hate meetings. I hate Higher Power. I hate anyone
who has a program. To ALL who come in contact with me I wish you
suffering and death.
Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of
alcoholism, addiction, drug abuse, gambling, eating disorders, etc....
I am cunning, baffling, powerful. That's me! I have killed millions
and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I
love pretending I am your friend... your lover, your confidant. I have
given you comfort, have I not? Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn't you call on me? Wasn't I always there?
I love to make you hurt. I love to make you cry.
Better yet, I love when I make you so numb, you can neither hurt nor
cry, you can't feel anything at all. This is true glory. I give
instant gratification and all I ask, in return, is long-term
suffering. I have always been there for you. When things were going
good in your life, you invited me in. You said you didn't deserve
these good things and I was the only one that would agree with you.
Together, we were able to destroy all things good in your life.
People don't take me seriously. They take strokes,
cancer and heart attacks seriously, even diabetes, they take
seriously. Fools that they are.... With those that know about me, I am
such a hated disease, yet I do not come uninvited. YOU CHOOSE to have
me. So many have CHOSEN ME over reality, peace and serenity.
I hate all of you who have this stupid 12 Step
Recovery Program. Your program, your meetings, your steps and that
higher power crap, all of it weakens me and doesn't let me function in
a manner that I am accustomed to.
Now I must lie here quietly... You don't see me, but I
am here, growing bigger than ever. When you only exist, I may live.
When you "live", I only exist. But I am here... waiting. And
until we meet again, if we meet again, I wish you continued suffering.